Tonight I watched your YouTube video and I had to write to you.
I wanted to let you know that your abortion procedure affected many more than just you. It affected many more than just your child. In fact, abortion really affects everybody. Men, women, Caucasians, Asians, African Americans, Christians, Jews, Atheists and Agnostics. We are all connected by the fact that, when in our mother's womb, the constant presence of a mother's choice hung over our very existence, threatened by being punished for the supposed crime of being conceived at an inconvenient time.
Twenty-five years ago, your mother made the beautiful decision not to have an abortion when she found out she was pregnant with you. I'm glad she made that decision. You are a beautiful woman, made in the image and likeness of a God who loved you into existence, and God has such an incredible plan for your life.
And now you share a bond with your mother - that you now are a mother too. Despite the fact that your child was not able to bless this world with his or her presence, he or she very still much exists.
During your video, you said you were in awe over the fact that you were able to create a life. What a beautiful truth - indeed, there was a fully human being, created in the image and likeness of God, in your womb. Maybe she had your eyes. Perhaps he would have smiled the way you did when you heard a good song come on the radio. She could have snuggled with you under a blanket during one of your favorite movies. He may have slid into home base during the first Little League game of the season. Maybe she would have twirled in heels at the prom of her dreams. Maybe he would have asked you to straighten his tie before he married the girl of his dreams. She could have smiled with uncontrollable joy when telling you that you were going to be a grandmother.
You were right. You did create a life. Yet your perceived right to choose what was best for you won out over the beautiful way of recognizing that little person in side of you. For the sake of convenience, you bought a supposed ticket to freedom. Freedom from the supposed burden of a child who ran to you and called you "Mom." Freedom from the sound of sweet snoring from your child as you watched her sleep. Freedom from the responsibilities of a human being who you very much helped create.
And it can't be undone. No matter how much you choose to not regret or regret your abortion, it is what it is. We can't rewind time, although some day, you'll want to. One day, your little baby's father will also regret his lost little one, the product of a choice, extinguished by a choice.
You are right. I do not know what it is like to feel my heart drop as I look down at a pregnancy test and see positive results. I don't the heartbreak of realizing that everyone will know now...and I'm not ready.
Beautifully, there is a God who loves you, and your child. Who forgives you and wants for all the life of Him to welcome you into His arms and let you know that it's okay.
Matthew 11:28-30 says, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light”
There is no sin unforgivable. No burden too heavy.
There is a place when, after you leave this world, you have the opportunity to enter into eternal joy with the maker and lover of your soul....and be greeted by the sound of little feet and a tiny voice that calls to you, "Mommy!"
Dearest Emily, you are in my prayers.
Your sister in Christ.